I didn't go into that situation or that duel planning it that way. But at the end...that was my goal.
...I saw Labrys die when I was in the Ettosyliet. She came back before it was all over. But. It stuck with me. And I couldn't imagine letting it happen again if Eliphas decided to target the Barians.
I'm saying all of this, not as an excuse, but just. To make it clear where my head was at the time. I...thought whatever I did would justify the way I did it and it didn't matter because I wasn't gonna live through the end of it after I accomplished my goal, anyway. And for that...I wound up manipulating you into doing something really horrible.
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...I saw Labrys die when I was in the Ettosyliet. She came back before it was all over. But. It stuck with me. And I couldn't imagine letting it happen again if Eliphas decided to target the Barians.
I'm saying all of this, not as an excuse, but just. To make it clear where my head was at the time. I...thought whatever I did would justify the way I did it and it didn't matter because I wasn't gonna live through the end of it after I accomplished my goal, anyway. And for that...I wound up manipulating you into doing something really horrible.
I wanna apologize for that.