Haita Onni

I don't really know why I'm posting at the moment, I guess I just feel like I need to say something where no one else can hear it...


...I'm tired of being stepped on all the time by everyone. I don't even know why they do it. Is it because I'm a nerd? Is it because I'm in Ra? Is it just something about my character... meh, who knows.

I just want to keep my life together, at this point... it's okay so far, but why do I feel that isn't going to last?

Mn... I need to start playing DnD again. Maybe ask Hoshi if she wants to start up a game... and hell, I might actually see if 4th Edition is decent after all, instead of blaspheming it.

I don't know, having to take such drastic measures to keep my life in check... it's putting me through hell. At least I haven't snapped at anyone today. I'm finally making progress.


...Our anniversary's in two weeks, I need to find a way to get something really nice for her.

....Saiou-san's reading...

..it's accurate... way too accurate... but what am I supposed to do...?

Mn... where should I go from here...

Hmph... Hoshi noticed something strange about me... I might be going at this the wrong way... yes... yes...

I see now, I see....

I'll protect  Hoshi from all the wickedness of the island... be her redeemer, and stop those who would hurt her, by any means... yes... yes...

I'll be her knight, her crusader, even more than I was before, strength means nothing without will to go beyond extremes... and I have that will, yes I do...

Hm hm hm... that still leaves the question about what to do about poor little Jeanette....

Heh heh heh.... I don't think it's worth devoting my time to her, no... not as I would Hoshi, who truly loves me....

Instead, I shall get my revenge on her. Yes... that's exactly what I'll do!

He he he he.... I cared for her, protected her, did everything in my power to help her... and she decided to abandon me, to forsake me, to betray and backstab me.... such a naughty act deserves punishment, I think. I will have my redemption, by enacting my own righteous retribution upon Jeanette!

Such a pity it had to come to this, though...she had to go and be the naughty abnormality and betray me, when I was only trying to help... oh well, it's her choice, it's been made.

There's no turning back now, he he he he....

Shikou-san. Is there anything you would like me to help with, concerning this? I'd like to know what's going on, and help however I can.

I... can't believe it's really going to happen.

Is... everything ready?